Ah fuck.Â The Sasha Harem is falling apart!!
So, the Bulgarian has gone back home for the summerâ€¦. Where sheâ€™s going to (attempt) to break up with her bf. She says she canâ€™t wait to see me in Oct when she gets back â€“ but weâ€™ll see what happens. Iâ€™ll miss her!
Now, it gets worse. Hbmixed had emailed me last week saying how excited she was to visit this guy in the U.S.Â I was happy for her. But now, sheâ€™s emailed me saying sheâ€™s crazy about this guy, and theyâ€™re together now, and thatâ€™s it! Seems a bit crazy, after seeing someone for 10 days in a row (though they’ve been talking online for a while.) Â Even crazier to have a long distance exclusive relationship. I mean â€“ CRAZY. But heyâ€¦.. she thinks sheâ€™s in love. Maybe she is. sighhhhhh. I liked her (well, I still do) and she sex was really good! This is the first time this has happened to me since going polyamorous last summer.Â I knew it would happen eventuallyâ€¦ and after giving my girls the whole â€œI want you to be happy, Iâ€™ll still be here for you no matter whatâ€ speech â€“ I have no choice but to be happy for her!! Heheâ€¦ and I amâ€¦.. canâ€™t be selfish about it.
Itâ€™s an interesting feeling though. I like these girls â€“ they are great! But ultimately, because they are my friendsâ€¦. I do want them both to be happy. Even if that means I donâ€™t get to sleep with them anymore :( Â â€¦â€¦ I guess that’s how it goes. I can hear Johnny’s voice in my head “It’s ok. Just relax and be cool. Eventually he’ll fuck up, and she’ll come crawling back into your arms….” But I don’t really know if I want that. I want her to be happy….. I know I’ll be! ;)
Don’t know if I’m surprised myself but …. Itâ€™s cool. Totally cool! :)
As we know…. Â there are always more hotties, just over the horizonâ€¦..