FUck …. Fuck… fuck…..
So, the 18 year old came over the other night. Long story short, she was being dodgy and not letting me escalate, and by the end she was tongin me pretty good. I guess it was LMR – but not really. She feels bad cuz she said “yes” to her ex saying he wants them to go away together in the summer etc, even tho they’re meant to be broken up. Maybe they’re not broken up but she told me they are. I’m not actually sure, I’ll ask her.
I could have pushed thru it, but I actually like this girl and I want it to be 100% mutual, not be “changing her mind” … it’s just not sexy for me to do that shit. Unless I just want to fuck a girl once, then I can bear it. But not with her. It’s kind of immoral, if you think about it. If there is any kind of connection there shouldn’t really be LMR. maybe token LMR… but she really didn’t want to do it, though her logic was retared. she said “i’ll have to tell him i slept with someone else, and he won’t look at me the same way again” … so what, she’s going to hold out till the summer? good luck with that.
Anyways, I knew that Hbkinky wanted to hook up… so I let Hbbulgarian get her last train, texted hbkinky and she came over. It was funny, i was actually texting hbhungarian while my head was in hbhungarians lap with her stroking my hair… then it seemed that i might lay hbhungarian so i was texting the other one saying “i’m in a meeting that’s going long – don’t leave yet, i’ll text you!”
the worst thing would have been, that hbhungarian would have missed her train or decided to come back once the other girl was on her way over. that would have been bad, really bad. probably a dangerous game i was playing but it worked out
So, hbkinky came round and gave me some of the best head i’d had in a while. i fingered her and she came in about 90 seconds. easy peasy. i was exhausted and we fell aslepp before getting to the main course
then, she flatmate comes home at noon the next day. she found the place in a state, flipped out and chucked me out… i’m now suddenly homeless and stayin mate in north london
Tell you what, you know you’re friend’s got a drinking problem when you arrive at his house and think to yourself “shit, i should have brought a light bulb”
Sigh. And there’s fleas on the couch.
Sigh. Anyone want to take in a pua ? I’ll do the dishes…rub your feets…. teach you game… lol
Seeing Bulgarian Sat, but gotta get rid of her early for a house party. Can’t close anyways so I guess i will just tease her and leave it.. hehe…